One step at a time…..

July 13, 2016 Leave a comment

by Lindsey Wimmer, RN, MSN, CPNP, CPLC

Grief is often described as a ‘journey’ – and I understand why.  My journey with stillbirth began 12 years ago this month.  I’m still not sure what the ‘destination’ is, but I would describe it as a long hike.

At the beginning of the hike, I was standing at the bottom of the mountain.  Looking up at the path in front of me was overwhelming, and it was bigger than anything I had ever done before.  I had significant doubts about my strength and stamina to even begin such a task.  Part of me wanted to go around the mountain thinking it would be easier.  But that was a long trip, too and I wasn’t guaranteed a smooth path there, either.

After staring at the mountain for a long time, I started climbing the way everyone does – one step at a time.  I did a lot of stumbling and slid backwards often.  I’m still not at the top – and I don’t expect to get there.  But I have learned a few things along the way.

Be prepared

I laugh at the thought that anyone could be prepared for this type of journey.  None of us are.  But if you are at the base of this mountain, take a moment to think about the days and weeks in front of you.  You don’t have to start running the minute your feet hit the ground.  Take a deep breath, ask questions, and feel the love and support of those around you.

Use the Buddy System

It often feels like we are alone on this path.  But there are people willing to be our buddy for the trip.  It may be someone you already know, or it may be a new friend that you met only at the mountain.  This is the person who can give you suggestions, help you avoid the loose rocks, be your cheerleader when you need support to continue, and will sit down with you when you need to catch your breath.

Fuel your body

We have to take care of ourselves if we want to get up that mountain.  It’s easy to have poor or absent nutrition, develop bad health habits, or use substances as coping mechanisms.  The work of climbing this mountain is much easier if you are eating properly, getting good sleep, engaging in physical activity, not using alcohol or other substances, and seeking medical attention for health concerns.  It may not seem like a top priority at the moment – but it needs to be.

Accept a Hand

Somewhere on the way up the mountain, you will need or want to grab the hand of someone willing to help.  Don’t be afraid to do so.  It is not a sign of weakness, but of personal awareness.  Some hands help with daily tasks.  Some hands are professionals who can help you stay healthy.  Accept the help you need or that would just make the journey a little less stressful.

Take a Break

The entire mountain doesn’t have to be climbed at once.  Take breaks to catch your breath, look around, and see your new environment.  Get a drink of water, take a nap, have lunch with friends, laugh, get off the path to see the wildlife, watch the sunrise, do something you’ve always wanted to do.  These short diversions are healthy and help you prepare for the next portions of the hike.

Look back once in a while

There are probably more ‘small’ victories than you realize along the path.   Those rough patches in the journey may look like planning a memorial service, surviving milestones and anniversaries, being around babies that are the same age as your baby, returning to work, making new friends, adjusting to other people’s reactions, attempting another pregnancy, surviving another pregnancy, or more.  Give yourself credit for overcoming those obstacles!

Reach out your Hand

When you are looking back, you will see fellow hikers who are just starting their road up the mountain.  Offer them a hand through the rough patches or across the gaps.  It can be very healing to give back and it has helped me to appreciate how far I have traveled.

Be in touch with the mountain

This has been the hardest for me to learn and accept.  I resented the fact that I was even on the mountain.  Finding peace is a challenge if you are at odds with the ground you’re walking on.  In time, I began to think of the mountain not as my grief – but as my son.  This path is my journey of love with my son – not a journey I was put on because we lost him.  It’s not the mountain I had planned, but I have learned to appreciate it.  It reminds me of what is important in life and why I continue to put one foot in front of the other.

 

A father’s advocacy never ends.

June 7, 2016 3 comments

by Dale Fuller, Star Legacy Foundation Board Member

I hope Landon is proud of me today.

This year I’m celebrating Father’s Day with an empty highchair at our dinner table.  Two years ago we lost our son Landon to stillbirth at 38 weeks gestation, just a few days before his due date. 2015-06-18-1434648618-2834579-IMG_0719copy.jpg

I had grown up believing Father’s Day was about honoring your father, which I still do, but it’s taken a different meaning for me now, wanting to advocate for my children in a way I had never planned.

My story begins much like any other excited couple expecting a new baby.  My wife Carrie was 38 weeks pregnant with our second child.  We had already been blessed with a healthy daughter Elise two years prior.

Carrie’s pregnancy was “text book.”  Other than mildly high blood pressure everything was going perfect and in just a few days we would be expecting our son.  I still remember the morning of Thursday, May 15, 2014. I kissed Carrie goodbye on my way to work and put the baby’s car seat in my vehicle, eagerly awaiting his arrival.  I had waited to do this until his due date was closer, but I felt confident the time was right, just in case he came early.  Carrie was on her way to her last ultrasound appointment that morning.

My life changed forever that day.

During Carrie’s last, routine ultrasound the technician could not find the baby’s heartbeat. He was gone.  I rushed to the clinic to find Carrie leaning over a chair in a back room.  She was in shock.  I asked the doctor “how could this happen?”  The doctor shrugged her shoulders and said, “It happens.”  I was speechless.  I prayed Carrie would feel the baby move, and for this all be some horrible mistake.  Unfortunately that didn’t happen.  We were told to go home and come back the next day to deliver our baby.

One of the most exciting times in our lives had turned into a nightmare.2015-06-18-1434648739-4006315-IMG_0778copy.jpg

The next day we delivered our sleeping son Landon.  A perfect baby boy almost 8 lbs.  We were given 36 hours to make a lifetime of memories by taking photos, his hand-prints, locks of his hair, and introducing him to his big sister.

After a million “whys,” the doctor informed us that Landon had a “true knot” in his umbilical cord which had become too tight and caused him to pass away.  I immediately thought, “How could this have been missed after weekly ultrasounds for six weeks?”

The following week we buried our precious son. It was a bright sunny day with the flowers in bloom.  Surrounded by family and friends we said goodbye to the boy we all wanted to know.

After the funeral, Carrie and I started the quest for answers.  We sent her medical records to a well -known doctor who has dedicated his life to reducing stillbirth and studying the human umbilical cord (Dr. Jason Collins).  Shock struck again after finding that Landon’s cord knot was actually visible in some of Carrie’s ultra sound pictures. How could this have been overlooked?  We never got the answers we asked for, but have turned our passion for answers into advocacy.  This started a new journey in our lives.  It was time for me to advocate for my child.

2015-06-18-1434648813-3524894-IMG_2884.JPGShortly after Landon’s passing I joined the Star Legacy Foundation  whose mission it is to reduce the number of stillbirths and change society’s thinking about them.

Stillbirth is a public health crisis.  Every year in the United States approximately 26,000 children die from stillbirth, more than S.I.D.S. and childhood cancer combined, yet little to no funding or research goes towards this cause.  How can society be forgetting about these children who were so close to greeting their parents with a healthy cry? Unfortunately the medical community has been less than open to change, and interestingly comfortable with the number of stillbirths based on current data.  My son seems to be a “statistic” that is accepted by the medical community.

So we began contacting state health agencies and ACOG (American College of Obstetrics) asking them to use today’s technology more effectively to watch for warning signs of fetal distress and to identify ticking time bombs.  I’m not a doctor, but often wonder how they are able to perform such complex procedures like heart or microscopic surgery, but yet they say it’s not possible or necessary to detect a knot in an umbilical cord.  I’ve asked the medical community these questions.  One doctor told me that they “just don’t want to scare pregnant mothers.”  That is a poor response to a “stillbirth dad,” to which I’m now referred.

Additionally, there should be more awareness and education for expecting mothers about tracking fetal movements and what are the warning signs of fetal distress.  Reputable organizations across the nation such as The Star Legacy Foundation have material on how to do this.  Why were we not educated about this from our “trusted” medical provider?

We have already had success in this journey, however. In my home state of Minnesota, our lawmakers are listening and this last year passed into law a bill encouraging the Minnesota Department of Health to begin researching the causes of stillbirth and to start drafting recommendations to reduce these tragedies.   This year we were successful in convincing Minnesota lawmakers to provide a $2000 one-time tax credit for stillbirth families to offset the unexpected expenses when a baby is stillborn.  I am hopeful this is a movement for other states and for action at the federal level.

On this Father’s Day life has gotten easier.  A few months after losing Landon, my wife and I found out we were expecting another child.  How happy, but scared we were.  I prayed every night that history would not repeat itself.  Carrie and I began the search for a doctor who would advocate for us. After seven interviews (and some persuasion) we found one!  We had ultrasounds twice a week and looked at the umbilical cord in depth at every appointment.  In May 2015 we welcomed home a healthy son, Lukas. “Bittersweet” is the word I use to describe the experience.2015-06-18-1434648954-1719437-P7.jpg

Looking back over the past two years, Carrie still asks me “why did this happen to Landon?” and “what could we have done differently?”  The answer I give her is that we did the best we could with the information we knew at the time. As a father, I have to believe this.

I hope Landon is proud of me this Father’s Day.  It’s been two years now since I held him last, but I can still smell his baby smell, I can still feel the weight of his body in my arms, and can still picture his beautiful hands and toes. I will continue to remind my living children about who he was, and what took him from us.

I would ask all fathers across the country to take a moment to honor their children and to think about how they are advocating for them.  They need you more than you know, and the moments you get with them are limited.

Landon, as long as I still have a heartbeat, I’ll go on advocating for you and for the all the other babies lost to stillbirth.

I love you,

Dad

Memorial Day…. Then and Now

May 13, 2016 2 comments

by Lindsey Wimmer, RN, MSN, CPNP, CPLC

(This post was first published in 2013 and by request we are reposting for Memorial Day 2016!)

Forget-Me-Not

I have fond memories of Memorial Day from my childhood.  We would go around to the cemeteries where my great-grandparents, great aunts and uncles, and grandma were buried.  It always took more time than we (as kids) expected because we would run into neighbors or friends who were also honoring their loved ones.

But, my favorite part was that this activity would prompt my parents and other relatives to start telling stories about the family members I was helping to remember even though I had never met most of them.  Some of the stories were funny, some I didn’t understand at the time, and some were honest explanations of challenging times.   I found it fascinating to hear about my own parents’ and grandparents’ childhoods and who they looked up to as they were growing.  More than anything, I cherished the sense of family that I learned from these weekends.

Of course, I didn’t understand at the time what that feeling was, but I knew it was something special.  It didn’t matter to me that I hadn’t met some of these people because I felt like I knew them.  The stories I heard about them, the love I could see that my parents still had for them, and the intentional connection we made with them each year helped me to understand who they were, what they taught my parents, and how they impacted our entire family.  It was as if I had known them myself and I came to love them for the role they now played in my life.

IMG_2874Now almost twelve years after my son Garrett was stillborn, Memorial Day means a lot more to me.  But the principle is the same.  I know in my heart that Garrett will always be a part of my life, but I still enjoy taking time out of our busy lives to pick out flowers and spend a few moments at the cemetery remembering him, honoring his memory, and cherishing the time we had with him.  I don’t have as many stories about Garrett to share with my children as my parents did of their grandparents to share with me.  But the quantity doesn’t matter.  This has become a time when my children, who were born after Garrett, get to make a connection with their brother in a tangible way and to the extent that they are able.  We are comforted by thinking about Garrett’s role and place in our family, what he has taught us, and what he means to us – just as we do with our other deceased relatives.

A few months after Garrett was born, I was asked when I would be ‘over this’.  At the time, the concept seemed absurd, but it was only because I couldn’t even imagine a day that I didn’t sob uncontrollably and feel the physical ache in my chest.  Today, the concept still seems absurd, but it is because I have a different perspective on why.  What does it mean to be ‘over’ a loss?  Does it mean we don’t cry in front of others?  Does it mean we don’t remember?  Does it mean we aren’t sad about the situation and wish things had been different?  Does it mean we stop loving them?

I will NEVER be ‘over’ Garrett’s death – and I’m happy about that.

I would be devastated if there is ever a day that I don’t remember him or think about his impact on my life.    At this point, remembering him is more comforting than forgetting him.  I can laugh about the lighter moments of my pregnancy and I can talk to others about him without dissolving to tears every time.  This is adjusting to my new normal.  This is recognizing that I will parent Garrett differently than my other children and I have learned how to do that in a way that feels good to me.  This is not being ‘over’ him.

But this is not a new or unique concept.  This is what my parents were teaching me over the years during all the Memorial Days at the cemeteries.  When they experienced the loss of their grandparents, parents, aunts, uncles, friends, or any loved ones, they did the same thing I have done.  They found a way to have a relationship with that person that doesn’t involve the physical relationship they were used to, but one that works for them and allows them to function in their new normal.  They found ways to be grateful for the time and experiences they had with them, and they took the opportunity to share those people with my brother and I.

Placing flowers on graves for Memorial Day may not be a tradition for everyone, but I believe we all find our own ‘Memorial Day’.  Whether you’ll be celebrating your loved ones on Monday or any other day of the year, I wish you all a gentle and loving Memorial Day spent with those you love.

Stillbirth Still Shocks…..

April 5, 2016 4 comments
This article was co-authored by Hilary Hughes and Samantha Banerjee  of the Star Legacy Foundation New York Metro Chapter and appeared in Lohud.com  on 4/5/16.  It is tenderly written and tells why our new chapter is so important.  We have a number of new chapters organizing – if you are interested in forming or joining a chapter in your area let us know .
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Newly formed NY Metro Chapter of the Star Legacy Foundation seeks prevention, research funding

Imagine you are pregnant.  After a long but happy nine months, you arrive at the hospital only to be blindsided by the most devastating news possible: your perfectly healthy baby has died, and no one can tell you why. Then imagine that the next words out of the doctor’s mouth are that you’ll have to labor for several hours, only to deliver your beloved child’s dead body. And then you’ll leave the hospital alone, an empty child safety seat still strapped in the back of your car. And you’ll somehow begin the monumental task of picking up the pieces of your shattered life.

The horrific nightmare outlined above has a name: stillbirth.  And believe it or not, it’s 635954470850787477-stillbirth-1-.jpghappened to an untold number of families in our local communities. The newly formed NY Metro Chapter of the Star Legacy Foundation is seeking to change this.

Each year, there are 2.6 million babies stillborn around the world, approximately 26,000 of those in the United States.  It is 10 times more prevalent than Sudden Infant Death Syndrome (SIDS), and if included in causes of death, would rank 11th in the United States. However, as noted by prominent medical journals, stillbirth has not received attention relative to the scope of the problem.

Public health experts have called stillbirth “one of the last taboos” and “one of the most shamefully neglected areas of public health.” Indeed, thousands of stillbirth families will report feeling that the death of their baby before birth was considered “not to count.” The lack of funding, interest, and urgency in investigating and preventing these deaths — and the all too often inadequate support given by health professionals and society to families who experience a stillbirth — reflect these truths.

Affecting 1 in every 160 deliveries, according to the American College of Obstetricians and Gynecologists, stillbirth is one of the most common adverse pregnancy outcomes. Yet, it remains one of the most understudied and underfunded public health issues, even though, for example, there are twice as many stillbirths worldwide as deaths due to HIV/AIDS.

The worst part is that so many of these tragedies are potentially avoidable.

Approximately half of all stillbirths occur during the third trimester (after 28 weeks gestation), when interventions are more practical. Shockingly, one sixth of all stillbirths occur after the baby has reached term gestation. And heartbreakingly, a cause of death is never identified for as many as 70 percent of all fetal deaths.

Clearly, something needs to change. But change will never happen without increased funding for research and more open discussion about this tragic topic. The Eden Prairie, Minnesota-based Star Legacy Foundation is a 501(c)(3) non-profit organization dedicated to stillbirth research and education, and is on a mission to increase awareness, support research, promote education, and encourage advocacy and family support regarding stillbirth.

With no local organization driving progress on stillbirth in the heavily populated New York metropolitan area, it was imperative for the NY Metro Chapter of Star Legacy to form.

We are a passionate group of parents, families, and friends of stillborn babies who strive to save other families from the heartache we have suffered. We believe that through discussions with medical providers and expectant families, we can show others that we can do more to prevent such a needless tragedy. Along with the rest of the Star Legacy Foundation, our chapter has great hope for the future to prevent many stillbirths in the United States and around the world.  Through our grassroots efforts, we can provide the education and partnership necessary to empower families and health professionals to identify and protect vulnerable babies.

We invite you to join us in our mission to save the lives of babies in our community and beyond. Register for our family-friendly 5K run/walk on April 17th in Port Washingtonm, NY and/or April 30th in South Salem (www.letsnotbestill5k.org) and learn more at www.starlegacyfoundation.org/new-york-metro-chapter/

Hilary Hughes is chair of the NY Metro Chapter of the Star Legacy Foundation.

At least I’m not ‘high-risk’…..

March 16, 2016 2 comments

by Lindsey J. Wimmer, RN, MSN, CPNP, CPLC

Pregnancies are usually characterized into high-risk and low-risk categories.  The ‘high-risk’ pregnancies are those that have documented and accepted risk factors for poor outcomes.  They include concerns like anatomical and genetic abnormalities in the baby, multiple gestation pregnancies, pre-eclampsia, gestational diabetes, and some maternal health conditions.  These pregnancies are often co-managed by a maternal-fetal medicine specialist and are followed using a protocol that involves additional testing and more frequent monitoring.  The ‘low-risk’ pregnancies are any that don’t meet the criteria.

The stillbirth rates for ‘high-risk’ pregnancies are a fraction of what they are for ‘low-risk’ pregnancies.

According to the Society for Maternal Fetal Medicine, incorporation of this proactive care can decrease the rate of perinatal mortality from 8.8 to 1.3 deaths per 1000 births (Society for Maternal Fetal Medicine, 2010).  The current US stillbirth rate is 6.1 deaths per 1000 births.  That seems backwards because the label implies the higher rate would be in the ‘high-risk’ group.  I believe there are many ‘low-risk’ pregnancies that could/should be managed by this same protocol.

There are many, many known risk factors for stillbirth and other poor pregnancy outcomes that don’t qualify for high-risk care.  Included in that list are:  maternal obesity, advanced maternal age, non-Hispanic black race, first pregnancy, maternal drug use, use of IVF or other reproductive technologies, umbilical cord or placental abnormalities, pregnancies over 40 weeks gestation, and a mother who had a previous poor pregnancy outcome (such as stillbirth, preterm birth, neonatal death).  These women are not routinely given the opportunity to benefit from a higher level of care.  We hear from women every week who are in these categories, yet they are reassured that there is no reason to be concerned.  We also hear from women with these characteristics that are turned down as patients by maternal-fetal medicine specialists because they don’t qualify for that level of expertise.

Even more concerning are the women who have several of these ‘soft’ risk factors.  A 40 year old, obese, African American woman who used IVF to conceive should make every obstetrician or midwife nervous.  Yet, most will consider her ‘low-risk’.  We don’t have a magic study that tells us how to prevent all poor outcomes for these women – but we can use common sense and take advantage of the tools available to try.  At the very least, we can have an honest conversation with the family about these risk factors and work together to identify a plan that makes sense to those most involved and affected.  One of the options would be to offer them a high-risk pregnancy management plan.

I am also concerned that the current management of many of these risk factors is to prevent them from being true.  Of course – it would be great if every woman could choose to be pregnant before they are 35 years old, be an ideal weight, not need fertility treatments, and not use recreational drugs.  But these aren’t always practical.  And even so, not considering those issues as risk factors once a pregnancy is a reality for these women is unethical.  We have to have a better approach to managing these risk factors, even if they are modifiable.

For the women who are managed as high-risk, the classification can also be challenging because their management is often centered on the one piece that earned them that status.  A woman with gestational diabetes will be seen more often with diligent monitoring of her blood glucose levels, but may not have any attention paid to the effects on the placenta, be asked about her baby’s movements, or consider that this is her first pregnancy, she is 38 years old, and she is at 40 weeks gestation.  These women often have a false sense of security because they know they are getting a higher level of care and assume that care is comprehensive.

The number one comment I receive during these conversations is this:  “If we consider the entire list of risk factors, every pregnancy would be classified as ‘high-risk”.  YES.

There is no such thing as a low-risk pregnancy. 

Every mother, every baby, every pregnancy, and every family deserves the best we have to offer.  Comprehensive, high-risk care protocols should be offered to every pregnant woman.  The education about all those risk factors and an honest discussion about the options should be automatically provided for each pregnancy.  Each family will decide how aggressive they want to be – and that is what medicine is all about.  But keeping that information and those options from large numbers of women is not doing anyone any favors.

High Risk Pregnancy FactorsThis is not to say that I believe this care will prevent all stillbirths or other poor outcomes.  It won’t.  And I don’t expect our health professionals to be super heros with super-human talents.  I just want them to give their patients credit for being rational, intelligent people who simply want what is best for themselves and their babies.  And that will look different for each patient.  That is where the art of medicine comes into play.  Having all the information doesn’t scare pregnant women – it empowers them.

Yes – there is a financial cost associated with much of this.  However, it is impossible to put a dollar amount on the life of a baby and the grief experienced by a family if that baby does not get to go home with the family as planned.

I want our health professionals to worry about our HEALTH first, and our wealth second.

This is part of the conversation, but families need to know their risks and have information about the pros and cons of proactive care (including costs) in order to make those decisions.

If it were up to me, every woman would be offered what is currently considered ‘high-risk’ care, but it would also be comprehensive and include multiple discussions with the families about any and all risk factors that are present and the options available to manage them.  I hope our health providers would want to do this because it is utilizing the technology, intelligence, and ethics of 21st Century health care.

Artists and lone wolves

December 17, 2015 Leave a comment

Not long ago, yet it seems like ages, we had the good fortune of meeting Mark & Christine Ommen although the circumstances were far from fortunate as they had just lost their precious Matthew to an umbilical cord ‘accident’. I say we had the good fortune because this is an amazing talented young couple who now share our passion at Star Legacy Foundation​ for preventing stillbirth. Christine began blogging as a therapeutic release but she has a true gift for putting on paper what so many of us have come to understand along our own journeys. Read this blog and then read the rest – they are simply amazing. You will no doubt subscribe to her blog as we have so you don’t miss anything. Little Matthew is impacting so many through the voice and pen his Mother provides.

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Right after Matthew died, I left my bed only to meet visitors in our living room. One day, though, I just couldn’t. That day was especially dark, my “I want to die” feelings particularly intense. Mark warned ES I wouldn’t get up, gave her an easy out. But she visited anyway.

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Sometimes These Things Just Happen

December 8, 2015 5 comments

by Lindsey J. Wimmer, RN, MSN, CPNP,. CPLC

I am often asked  – How is Star Legacy Foundation different?  I usually give a long-winded answer about our programs and amazing volunteers.  Today, the answer that sums it up best is this:  we believe we can do better. Garrett2013 pregnancy & infant awareness loss banner

When my son was stillborn 11 1/2 years ago, my doctor explained our loss to me with the words that ‘sometimes these things just happen’  and then she went on to say “the chances of this ever happening again are less than being struck by lightning twice in the same day.”  I have talked to countless families since then who were given the same explanation or a variation of that concept.  Maybe I’m stubborn, but I wasn’t willing to accept that as an answer.  I am a nurse practitioner and live in the medical world and see amazing things happen every day.  Some happen so often that we now take them for granted.  We do surgery on babies while they are still in utero; we transplant major organs; we eliminate diseases that once caused epidemics; we cure cancers.

Why do we accept that healthy babies at a viable gestation with healthy mothers having healthy pregnancies can just die without any warning or notice?

I don’t blame my doctor for this explanation because I know it was the answer she was given at some point.  During her training, this was the information provided to her.  The lack of research and awareness perpetuates this lack of advancement.

I blame our culture for not asking more questions.

  • We need to expect more research into this issue.
  • We need to expect better care for our babies.
  • We need to expect these children to be honored by trying to prevent others from the same outcome.
  • We need to expect that families will have access to all the support and resources they need to navigate their grief journey in a healthy way.
  • We need to expect that we can and will do better.

At Star Legacy Foundation, our focus is on research and education because that is what we need for our health professionals to know more about prevention and caring for families.  We have high standards and expectations because we believe it is possible.  Much of it is right in front of us, but we need to reframe what we value, how we view these babies, and how we can use our tools and resources.

Many other developed countries are seeing decreases in their stillbirth rates.  It is possible.  Some estimates indicate that the stillbirth rate could be cut in half by changing current protocols or utilization of resources.  We don’t need a fancy, new, Nobel prize-winning, molecular break-through.   In short – we need to value these babies and be willing to put energy into doing all we can for them.   By cutting the stillbirth rate in half, there would be 13,000 more babies who go home from the hospital every year in the US.  There would be 13,000 families who will enjoy the holidays this season through the eyes of a precious newborn child instead of struggling through the holidays with the heart-break of ‘what could have been’ or ‘almost was’. In five years, there will be 650 classrooms full of kindergartners who won’t be there without our efforts today.

It is possible. 

Please join us in making it happen. 

WE. CAN. DO. BETTER.

  

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